More then my life

Tonight before I went to bed I heard that you were still awake in your crib.

I turned off all the lights and put on a dim desk lamp in the loft outside your room.

I snuck inside your room to see you laying in bed, looking up at me.

I quickly lowered the rail, tossed your "fuzzy" over my shoulder, and you instantly stood up to be held.

I picked you up, and snuck you to the bathroom, where I gave you a cup of water.

Then I walked back to the loft, to the rocker (I just moved it out there last week)

I sat with you laying over my shoulder, you suck your thumb, which is too cute, and pet my arm

We rocked for 10 minutes

All while I whisper to you how much you mean to me, and how I will always be there for you.

I try desperatly to remember the little baby, SO tiny and sweet.

The little baby named Weaky. You barely squeaked. And now you ramble your jibberish as fast as me.

As I hold you I notice that your head is on my shoulder and your feet are down past my hips.

When you used to be just a handful of a little guy, well now your just a handful!!

I'm amazed at how different you are from your sister.

Your energy, your want to discover, your curiosity, your love of mess.

You quickly went from bottle, to sippy, now you barely need a straw, you just use a cup.

You are using silverware (plasticware) when you choose too (fingers are always first choice)

You try to get yourself dressed, and you love to play and interact with your toys.

You can understand me, and you do things I ask of you. Your the best little garbage thrower awayer I know!

Your patience is amazing, your just like your father. You wait your turn and when your crazy sister screams.

You back away like your father does when I scream at him.

Sure you are your father on the inside but physically your the boy version of me.

Blonde hair, blue eyes, big smile, and those teeth! Sorry you've got your Papa Carrots, and mom's teeth!

I held you tight in that rocker. I wished to capture you at that moment. You and me.

That years down the road when your "too big" to rock with me, that I remember tonight.

I love you more then you will ever understand Weaky.

These 23 months have been amazing. Can't wait for more.

More then my life.