Holy S%&# look at my ass!!

(check out the size of my ASS! Holy cow!)

As I sat in my afternoon bath (yes I take baths often in the afternoon while the kids nap. It's my "me time" that I schedule for myself) I went to sit up and looked down.








I saw rolls of fat, that irritated me. Rolls of fat that were from babies, and product of comfort foods. I saw legs that were jiggly, and very cottage cheesy. My ass... my ass has always been my "asset" (pun intended) I do have one, and no it is not a "white girl" butt (i.e. flat, and wide) mine is big and round (listen to the words from "Baby Got Back" for more details)








More importantly I saw a 30 year old mom who was losing the weight battle that she had been tackling so well at the beginning of the year. I am still under the 130 mark. I was 136 when I started. I am 128. It's 8 pounds.








I realize that when I try. Really try. I mean like work out at 6 am, eat eggs, chicken, and tuna for months. WORK at it.








I do have to say I am proud of the 8 lbs I have lost, and I have given up pop. (Since Feb 2, 2009 I have had 2 cokes) I always have water, coffee, just in the morning. Sometimes Raspberry ice tea when we go out.

I am tired of being fat. I am tired of looking at the "you wish" section of my closet. I am sure if I worked my ass off, I could lose the 21 lbs I want to drop. Yeah... I would have to be motivated... oh yeah, the naked bath tub scene should do it.



Or just looking at the picture my mom took of my big ass in my pink sweats I will NEVER wear out of the house again! And the flu doesn't help. Sadly it's not the stomach virus I got 5 years ago that had me shit out 12 lbs in a week. Now that was worth getting sick! This was the kind of sick where I went right for the comfort foods (I had 4 cheese tortellini with Alfredo sauce all week!)




Sigh... I miss just grabbing a shirt from my closet and going with it. Not having to debate over what fit, from day to day. I just need a surge of "want to get skinny, now get off your ass and do it" motivation.





Clause: I may say I am 128 lbs, and to some of you that is what you may have weighed in the 4th grade (I hear that often) but remember I am only 5 feet tall and my average weight for my height is 107. SOMEDAY. Someday I will match the weight on my drivers license!