How do I really feel about this diet?!?

Here is a typical P90X breakfast. (cute I know)


Sure it looks yummy. It a pear, and egg omelet, and two slices of turkey bacon. No sauce, I only get one fucking condiment a day. So I aint wastin' it on breakfast...


Lunch is usually something like green beans and a turkey burger covered in low fat no taste mozzarella cheese. Gag. me.

Dinner is usually me crying over how badly I want a WHOLE 4 cheese frozen pizza. Or a WHOLE box of Mac and Cheese for myself. Only ending in a chicken breast (here comes the condiment of choice!) and my carb for the day of 1 cup of rice (brown rice. Not the yummy white rice)

See the book below for the food chart of allotted meal options. There is also a page of how many of each I get per day. (take for example the light brown section on the left page. My fav. that is the carb section. But I only get one a day. Now the dark brown section above that is the protein section and sadly I get 5 of those a day. I can't pronounce most of them.)

The work out kicks my ass. That guy is funny, and I like his humor, joking about how he will come to my house to make sure I DO not have my heels on the floor while doing the walking lunges. All while he is forcing me to find muscles that I never knew I had. And causing me to have nights like last night. Holy batshit.

So last night I was SO sore. I mean I have been working out, but obviously the Kenpo X and the Yoga X are nothing compared to my fat ass doing the Legs and Back work out.

I couldn't walk with out wincing.

My legs, my back and my arms were like rubber. That work out was on Monday. Tuesday I was sore but yesterday... holy shit... I could even see straight. But it wasn't pain, it was just S.O.R.E.

Like body flu sore, is the best way to explain it. I swore I was coming down with the flu. But after soaking myself in the tub, and some Tylenol for that killer headache I had. I woke up fine.

Fine? I swore I would be bedridden for days, and wondering if I should call my mom to cancel the get together for Carrots (my dad) birthday tonight, and would I make it to the October Fest at my parents on Sunday... um sure, because I woke up just fine! To weird!

My friend on Facebook said that I was doing it right if I felt sore like that. And I mean I didn't over do it. at. all. I spent half the DVD in the confused head turned to the side position, and the other half of the time attempting to do at least one or two reps, while the fit people on the DVD screen did 25-30 reps.

My arms are killing me. I can only do one chin up on a chin up bar, but their variation had a girl using the band (you throw it over the chin up bar and pull like your doing chin ups.) the only problem was this was SO much easier I could do all 15 reps with the girl! (paying for it now! Hopefully I will have my Madonna arms sooner then later because of all that!)

I must share with you an in the moment picture. I am good for taking the camera and showing my real emotions (I did it once with post partum. Mid meltdown, I took a picture of myself. And yes I made a whole scrapbook page on it)

This was day 2 of the diet and work out. And how I really felt...