I big puffy red heart you

Did you ever have those days where you just woke up and wanted to just give each child every second of your attention? Where you are just SO full of love for them, that you are thinking, Zoo, Aquariums, Museums, Park, Toys, Sandbox... all in one day? Just to see smiles on there faces?

And then you quickly realize that you can not possibly do it all. Nor do you have any funds... so the back yard swing, the sandbox and the 9 zillion toys will do.

I mean don't get me wrong, I have MORE then my fair share of whining, and crying, and violence twards siblings then any mom would want. But I still love them SO much, and seeing them laugh is just the best cure for any shitastical day.

I was walking in my garden (I will have to tell you later, but my dad built me garden boxes! 3 feet deep and 20 feet long! Two of them!!) which is mostly dirt and seeds, but it calms me, and Bagel was walking with me. I set her down to knee down by my corkscrew willow trees, and she hops up on my back and in the tiniest little voice she whispers "Yeeha, mommy! Yeeha!"

So onto all 4's I crawl around in circles as Bagel giggles and squeals. Saying "Faster! Yeeha!" Thank goodness she's a tiny 25 pounder!

And while she was napping today, Weaky and me went back out to the garden, I just put out these little pinwheels. 6 of them, all different colors. I sat down next to where they were in the garden, Indian style. While he sat facing me in my lap. When the wind would blow them he would laugh, and clap!

Then I took him out to the airplane swing out back. His first time in that swing. He wanted to clap, but I think he was too busy hanging on!

I hope my children are as easy to amuse as I always have been. Some people would say that as an insult to me. I didn't get it. I mean to just find the most simple thing in life, or just to use your imagination is SO much more fun.

I find children amazing, and that there job in life right now is to explore, discover, and create is just awesome that I get to watch them go through it. I love staying home with them. It's something I find myself very grateful for in these times.

I love you my babies.

Mommy

xo...