We've covered this. Your unhappy
You fit into NONE of your current clothes. Thank heavens for Chirstmas so you can get 2 pairs of jeans and a bigger hoodie to hide in. Fan.fucking.tab.u.lous.
Your starting to have ALOT of skinny friends. WAY more then before. And not because you have more friends either. But because your becoming the fat girl.
Everyone you know is doing kick ass at this dieting thing. Well besides yourself, and Spaghetti.
And unless I remove a limb I am NOT even placing in the top 5 of ANY of the above spoken groups. Well hell make that top 20.
You hear a bad ass song on the radio. One to really shake your ass to. And bet your ass 10 years ago I could. I dropped it like it was hot, I took on dance floor challengers, beat them, and was the hot chic on the stage/box/platform at the club. Or I was on the bar with the other girls. Now? After two kids? And an ass that could be compared to JLo on one side, and Kim Kardashian ont he other? I would A. Wet my pants in the process. B. Not get back up because my knees would fail my weight, and C. I don't remember any hot chics dancing in a Winnie the Pooh hoodie and sweats, because that's all that fits my ass right now.
I fear a reunion of any sorts, from any place in my life, is going to come up and I have to go looking like this. Bad enough I have major mom hair from growing out my mohawk, yes post partum the second time around gave me the balls to do this...
And after reviewing last years pictures of me in sweats... lets just say you get the idea. Maybe a whole lotta shit talkin' of myself, in a combo of how good everyone else is doing, and a big dash of all their support and comments even though I have don't shit these last 11 days could move me to a routine of getting fit? AANNDD the fact that its 11:48 and WAY past my bedtime is not going to make tomorrow a good day to start.
I will update again with more whining about my lack o' participation and how big my ass still is at another time.
5 comments:
ahhh...don't be so hard on yourself!! you're such a cutie and so what if you don't look like you used to! You have an idea of what you want to look like and you can get there when you are ready!
Hang in there!
btw...love the hair!! Seriously!
First of all, I LOVED your mohawk and you pulled it off awesome! And anytime you want to go out dancing in your Winnie the Pooh sweatshirt, I will wear my Walt Disney one that I wear way too much and also pee myself with you.
Its not easy and if you read my email, you know that I am right there with you in this struggle. Sometimes I wish I had tons of money to just go get all kinds of plastic surgery!
I love the mohawk! Seriously!
You can whine all you want, as long as you are working on it! =)
True story: I went out dancing with a younger friend on her birthday back in June. Drinks made me feel young and confident. I shook my bootie like a rock star, I got low...and couldn't get back up. I had to beg help from a stranger. I've not been back out since. And what are you talking 'bout?! Mohawks are cool on moms. A 'Momhawk', if you will...
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