Grumpy Frumpy! Happy Snappy!

I love you.

I love you more then words could even attempt. I love you to the moon and back an infinite amount of times, I love you more then there are grains of sand in the oceans of the world, and I love you more then there are stars in the universe.

Spike. I love you.

I seem to be weaker when I am around you. Your sister cried, fussed, but you. Your just a helpless little man, that I just can't say no to. I don't favor you over your sister. But I do cherish you and your charming little man ways.

I worry about you. Your father wants to call the specialist on your head. See you turn it, to the left all the time. Kinda a lazy thing. Your sister did the exact same thing. But she out grew it. And at almost 7 months, you still do it, and your head is flatter because of it. They have a special helmet for you to wear. I just get so upset by it. I know Spaghetti wants you to be as normal as possible, so if this will help your head be normal, so you are just like everyone else. Then so be it.

But it just drives me insane. I know there is nothing wrong with you, that tons of kids where these things. And that I should thank every star in that universe for your flawless ways. But it just kills me, and makes me want to protect you, and smother you even more.

I went to lay him down to bed tonight. He fussed, and bit his lower lip. I thought reading his favorite book would make him happy.

I was reading you "Grrumpy Frumpy! Happy Snappy!" book, you love the little monsters in this book (Target $1 bin!) and I just melted. I was just absorbed in the moment of just you and me. Reading this book to you. I watched you paw at your book. I wondered, what it must be like to not even know what a book was, or to see you look in the mirror, and in awe you are just amazed at that little creature in front of you.

Simple things that we take for granted, that Spike doesn't even know what they are, or do. His innocence is amazing to me. And just the more reason to want to watch every second of his life.

I love you. More then anything. You and Bagel. You are my life.

Thank you.